I would like to preface this entry by saying that I can already feel a little piece of myself becoming lost....
Today was a "feriado" (holiday), in other words, there was no training. Although, the Peace Corps did bless us with language interviews today. Of course I was nervous. I do have to say that my Peruvian family was incredibly supportive. God bless them. My mom even made sure I ate before I left for my interview.
It was a beautiful day today. The weather was incredible. I went to my interview at 12 and was done a half an hour later. I went back home to collect some of my things so I could meet up with some friends for a little outing in Chosica, a town I affectionately refer to as Disney Land. As I was walking back to the training center to meet my friends I made the decision to blast my ipod the way I would if I was on my way to work in the city. Gangsta Rap, Dance Raggae, Hip Hop... AMAZING. It's something I haven't done in a month and when I did it I felt this sense of relief. I had recovered a "pep" that was missing in my step.
I try to explain myself to my family as often as I can. I want them to know who I am. I don't want to lose my identity because I have nothing to be ashamed of. I express myself in the most diplomatic ways possible and I am happy that I have made this decision.
I love the Peruvian culture. I love the way my family likes to hear what I have to say. I love listening to my Peruvian parents, about their epoca (time). I love learning their values and how they feel about the world today.
I refuse to lose myself to the shock that comes along with a new culture. Today was a good day. A really good day. I relaxed with good friends, bought turron (pastry) for my family, had a lovely dinner with my family and topped off the evening watching home movies of my little sisters. Today was a really good day.
Sometimes you have to make yourself vulnerable in order for people to have confianza (trust) in you. Become vulnerable, let down all guards, put yourself in a place you thought you would never go but never lose yourself.
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wise words from a beautiful and courageous woman.
i love reading about your adventure, and am praying for you. to know yourself better. to find your truth.
clearly you are walking through this journey with your eyes, ears, and heart open.
that is a wondrous place to be.
Why is it that I cry every time I read your posts? Maybe it is because I am so proud of you. You are such an amazing woman. Stay strong my sister. Shout out to TuPac. I love you and miss you every single day. Anu~
I love your posts...I'm waiting for the next one..write more! Miss you!!! xoxoxoxox.
Letn your guard down makes yourself vulnerable. what a familiar phrase. I'm very proud of you Giorgi. oh ya, ummmmm, so do you have my sparky's hat? I bet you do. When I get back from Iraq I'm going to make a surprise visit. how will i do that you say, don't know but where there is a will, there is a way.
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