Contemplating...

I have been doing a lot of that lately. Just sitting around, thinking. About Peru, about politics, about humanity, love. Ugh...things are so difficult when you have a brain. Don´t get it twisted...I am sooooo happy right now. Really. I´m 27 and things are changing rapidly. I had coffee with a girlfriend this week while I was in Lima and it reminded me of my reality. It reminded me that no matter how much I try keeping true to my identity in my site, I am not who I am while I am there. I´ve done a good job of assimilating but maybe too good of a job. So good that I have forgotten who I am. I am the kind of person that likes eating fancy dinners and spending too much money on shoes. Does that also mean that I can´t be a good volunteer? I love my work, I love the people I live with and I truly do love living this life. I do not regret for one minute leaving behind all of my luxuries but am I missing something?